I had spent months planning my best friend’s surprise baby shower. The night before, he started a huge argument. It was so intense I didn’t want to be here anymore. Drove myself to the hospital because I was so afraid of what I would do. I cried so hard, just like I had time and time again. This psychological sabotage happened almost every time there was a huge celebration. I couldn’t hang out with friends without feeling bad or needing to go home because he needed something. The fights because